Protection...

I moved on.

Cyanide and Happiness

Cyanide and Happiness are just probably the coolest cartons ever, its a team of guys that create a cartoon daily of possibly the most unpolitically correct content you'll read in awhile....

Anyways they have now started doing short cartoons... :o) it just gets better and better everyday !!!

http://www.explosm.net/movies/124/

A good nights sleep...

She stayed over again last night...I slept soundly for the 1st time...

Thats not a good sign.

Download a Camera

I found this link on the www.gizmodo.com site ...a downloadable pin hole camera....basiaclly you just download the PDF and follow the 3D tutorial and bob's your uncle....you now have a free pin -hole camera....this would be great for bizarre effects and feelings from film... :o)

Ducks

ducks

Tricky...

Well I have finally got the one thing ive always wanted and now I don't want it anymore ?!

Ive fallen into a pseudo relationship that requires no commitment whatsoever, we enjoy each others company, we sleep next to each other at night and our sexual energy's are matched....so essentially a fuck buddy (but without the fuck, I dont need or want to go down that road just yet tho it is heading there swiftly) for want of a better word.....

Its perfect....currently im not wanting any sort of relationship at all....too much effort, too much work and too many insecurities to deal with...and my biggest concern....falling for her...I cannot walk down this road again...well not this year at least...

I know that she wants nothing more than this, and at the same time its what so appealing after the many previous girls that were absolute relationship hounds....im not looking for anymore than this either but...im still very comfortable with where I am if that makes sense...I don't know if I would be so willing to give her up that easily :o?

So essentially im in a relationship that's not a relationship and wanting security where security is non existent...this is so infuriating...I always get to this point and bail out for fear of something greater...I always look 10 years down the road instead of that phone call 2 hours from now...

So do I bail out and stop it in its tracks before I get sucked into the whirlpool....or do I dive in head first and risk the potential for heartbreak once again.... ???

Oh and I think i've started smoking again after 4 years....double dammit !!!

Tagged

I AM: Incredibly sidetracked at the moment.

I WANT: a new mixing desk to calm this feeling of trepidation I have.

I WISH: I was sitting with my cats in front of the heater watching the Fifth Element.

I HATE: George Bush

I FEEL: Slightly fluffy and nervous.

I MISS: Her.

I FEAR: Car accidents

I HEAR: The aircon pumping hot air into my suite.

I WONDER: whether or not routing midi through the thru or out port will best suit my needs.

I REGRET: Saying some things ive said.

I AM NOT: The substitute.

I DANCE: like I did when I was 19.

I CRY: when she said the things she said.

I’M NOT ALWAYS: Happy.

I MAKE WITH MY HANDS: A putty tray for baby Liam to stick his feet into.

I WRITE: dark, sad and moody music.

I CONFUSE: A girls intention with the wrong intention.

I NEED: Another mixing desk.

I SHOULD: be on the road again...soon.

The Phoenix...

www.ussubs.com

What to do when you have more money than sense... ??? buy a luxury submarine of course....yaghts are mere pedestrians when compared to this puppy....when the seas get tough, just yell...dive, dive, dive and you are once again swamped in permanent bliss...you wanna leave your country for the winter ??? The Phoenix is capable of making trans-Atlantic crossings at 16 knots yet can dive along the route and explore the continental margins of some of the most fascinating waters on earth. With in excess of 460 sq/m of space you are guaranteed some supreme legroom and comfort for the entire journey....

Interestingly they dont leave you with a price ??? I'm very curious as to what that might be.... :o)

Blow It Up Remixes Now Available Online...

About 1 year and a half ago, myself and Louise (a very talented vocalist teamed up and created Devil's Cartel....we made an entire album (which is availbale at www.muziq.co.za) and sold a few singles to a UK based label called Voodoo Vinyl....the first one has been released now and its called "Blow it Up"...its a Goldfrapp fuelled sleasy disco stomp and the remixes are incredibly good...so if you are keen to hear any of them check out Devils Cartel on these sites...

www.beatport.com
www.djdownload.com
www.karmadownload.com
www.trackitdown.net
www.voodoovinyl.com

Mixes by:

Matt 'Duffer' Brown
Beat Me
Sugarpussy
Tenishia
Open Ocean
Ed Mant
Ed Wilder
Marksman
SiFi
Zooloo & Brotherman

Arno Carston's Killed My Girlfriend

Ok let me just start to say that this is not entirely true....

1st of all I don’t have a girlfriend so there is no possible way that Arno could’ve done such a dastardly thing.... this all happened to me in a rather vivid dream and since I still remember most of it, I thought I would put it all down on virtual paper before I forgot (or so to speak)...

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It began at a party, my party in fact and I was being the courteous host.... it was a cheese and wine affair with everybody cunningly downdressed to look smart... my girlfriend, a ravishing blonde was doing a fantastic job with the guests...we parted ways for some or other reason and I ended up speaking to my girlfriends sister, a stunning brunette (if you have ever seen Jemma Jameson with brown hair in her younger years, that what she looked like)...anyways.... there was a scream and we rushed to the bell tower next to the pool ( unsure.gif what a bell tower is doing next to a pool is any guess let alone the fact that I actually own one, a bell tower that is....I don’t even like bells)....there was my beautiful girl hanging by her scarf from the belfry....dead...

Now at a normal party, we would’ve stopped the proceedings and maybe called the police...not this one...nope, everybody carried on as usual like nothing happened and the brunette and myself started to investigate...

At this point things go a bit murky and im not entirely sure what I was doing but it seems I fell in love with the sister (bear in mind the blonde sister is still hanging from the belfry-im so fickle) and a romance started to blossom.... I remember a lot of running in and out of the house (not to sure of any sexual innuendo's here).... up and down corridors and falling more and more in love with this girl, more so than with the previous blonde (she was very pretty and probably very intelligent im sure, the brunette I mean)...and the moment came.... we were going to sleep with one another... (we had been running a lot after all so the time seemed right).... and this was the crux...a pack of birth control tablets fell out of her bag and I instantly knew I had been setup ???

Confused....??? Yep so am I...firstly a dream that involves 2 beautiful woman and no sex is a crime in itself but it would seem that Arno Carstons was my next door neighbour (a farmer wearing dungarees no less) and he was having a secret romance with the brunette (I was woken up before I discovered the secret was unfortunately).... my unlucky blonde girlfriend had been caught in the middle and was going to tell (someone important im guessing) and needed to be killed...so she was...

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So what have I learned from this dream... ???

A.) Stop watching so much Jemma Jameson...
B.) Arno Carston's is not a very nice neighbour (especially if he is wearing dungarees)...
C.) Those multicoloured woollen scarves are strong enough to hang someone by!!!
D.) Brunettes carrying birth control pills cannot be trusted...
E.) That antibiotics seriously effect your dream patterns...