Well and truly fukt...
Ok....
So Ive got myself into a situation that I have no real idea how to get out of...
I committed the cardinal sin of falling in love with my flatmate, now altho this on the surface seems to be no problem it has become a large issue in life cos well...we are no longer together...thats if we ever were to begin with...
If anybody has been following any of my posts im sure that wouldve seen the slow downward spiral ive had of late....some days are better than others but now it just seems like all of them are crap...I have to come back to her every night and inevitably we end up bickering because of whats happened in the past..which was basically a casual relationship that I took too seriously...I knew what I was getting into so altho I may be bitter I was aware...but I loved her so I always hoped there would be more...
Thing is...what now...ive asked her to leave at the end of the month after a rather revealing discussion I had with her....a week or so after we decided to end it, she started sleeping with another guy...
So what you say, get over it and move along....the problem is I cant...the problem is that i'm absolutely shocked that she did this and well...hurt...breaking up with someone is one thing...but take it slow...currently I just feel like a piece of meat that she has taken a slice of...and the saddest thing of all was that we were very good mates up until this point...what complicates matters more is that she is inherently involved in a project ive been working on for the best part of 3 years...so much involved that without her I might as well chuck in the towel...
We are talking my passion here and my reason to live...do I give that up so as not to be controlled by her anymore ??? Do I throw away what I could call my hard earned and well deserved success just so that i can throw off this strangle hold ???
Man its a tough choice...I know without her its gone, but I just cant stand to be around her anymore, not to mention that everytime I think about her I see her shagging another guy...
I just want to burst into tears,there is just no easy way out of this one...
Any advice...pleeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeease.....
So Ive got myself into a situation that I have no real idea how to get out of...
I committed the cardinal sin of falling in love with my flatmate, now altho this on the surface seems to be no problem it has become a large issue in life cos well...we are no longer together...thats if we ever were to begin with...
If anybody has been following any of my posts im sure that wouldve seen the slow downward spiral ive had of late....some days are better than others but now it just seems like all of them are crap...I have to come back to her every night and inevitably we end up bickering because of whats happened in the past..which was basically a casual relationship that I took too seriously...I knew what I was getting into so altho I may be bitter I was aware...but I loved her so I always hoped there would be more...
Thing is...what now...ive asked her to leave at the end of the month after a rather revealing discussion I had with her....a week or so after we decided to end it, she started sleeping with another guy...
So what you say, get over it and move along....the problem is I cant...the problem is that i'm absolutely shocked that she did this and well...hurt...breaking up with someone is one thing...but take it slow...currently I just feel like a piece of meat that she has taken a slice of...and the saddest thing of all was that we were very good mates up until this point...what complicates matters more is that she is inherently involved in a project ive been working on for the best part of 3 years...so much involved that without her I might as well chuck in the towel...
We are talking my passion here and my reason to live...do I give that up so as not to be controlled by her anymore ??? Do I throw away what I could call my hard earned and well deserved success just so that i can throw off this strangle hold ???
Man its a tough choice...I know without her its gone, but I just cant stand to be around her anymore, not to mention that everytime I think about her I see her shagging another guy...
I just want to burst into tears,there is just no easy way out of this one...
Any advice...pleeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeease.....
posted by fly at 4:14 PM
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