Thursday, December 07, 2006

Tagged

Ok...so i've been tagged to name 5 things the blogger world does not know about me... ?!

Quite interesting since im a very open person, but after a bit of thought I came up with a few.. :o)


1.) Im still absolutely useless at intiating relationships...this is after about 5 serious relationship and 15+ girlfriends...how do I do it ??? , sheer luck...half the time its the poor girl that has to make the 1st move...this used to work for me a couple of years back but doesnt seem to be so succesful of late :oP testament to me still being single...that and after all this im still incredibly fussy ?! which doesnt help the situation at all.

2.)I love chick flicks... !!!

3.)My heartrate has been a consistent 95bpm since I was a kid....this is incredibly fast and should, as far as I know be at about 80-85....im not unfit (tho I may be a bit now)...even when I was gyming and running daily it would still around that tempo...running, it would climb as high as 180bpm...

4.)I have 3 majour fears...Car Accidents, Midgets and Bluegrass music...

Car Accidents - Im convinced that ill be wiped out in a car accident by 45...

Midgets - I know that this is a totally irrational fear and it may seem discriminatory...but those that know me would know that im not like this...I have no idea where it stems from but small people seriously freak me out...its not something im proud of..

Bluegrass Music - OMG !!! ...if there was ever devil music this is it...female croning about lives forgotten to plinkity plonk music...last time I saw Bluegrass was at B2B...I actually had to ask a mate to pick me up cos I couldnt stand to be there...and well the guys I was with were quite content...this is a new fear that surfaced about 2 years back...its probably always been there but luckily we dont get to hear too much Bluegrass in SA....

5.)I cut my own hair and brush my teeth in the shower...

I tag...

Lollipop

Tuesday, December 05, 2006

Virginity...

Hmmmm...ok after a thought back in time i've decided to reveal my very 1st time....the day I lost my virginity...

Unlike many people ive spoken to, my experience was quite something...altho the actual act was not entirely what I expected, the after effects definately left me weak at the knees...so much so that I actually fell off my bike, much to the amusement of my girlfriend...

Now we shall begin at the beginning...T was dating my "best" friend at the time..well 3 months before...she was probably one of the prettiest girls in highschool and for a std 7 she was absolutely gorgeous...now M (my ex best friend) was one of those smoothies in High School...(if he was on a movie set he wouldve been a jock to the max)...and he treated T like absolute shit...well, not to her face, but he was an absolute monster behind her back....

Tbh, at the time I never really saw T and myself together, she was, what I thought way out of my league and well...she was dating my best mate....I was good mates with her brother tho so we spent a lot of time together...M used to only surface on the weekends to take her to the next house party...most of the time, T could not make it and this is when M would go crazy...he would pull into and sleep with as many girls he could in one night and trust me, the boy was prolific...

Anyways, T and myself had started developing a fairly tight friendship and it started driving me crazy to see how badly M would treat her, not to mention the fact that the entire school knew besides her...and...to make matters worse, a lot of the girls M would pull into were her mates....so I did the worst thing in the world and bust him...T, acted very different to how I expected and broke up with him str8 away....I was expecting for her to confront him but none of that happened...just a str8 split...she went her way and well, left M wondering what the hell had happened..thats until he found out what I had said, (to this day I still dont know who split on me)...M was not the kind of guy you did that to....after a few punches and a bit of blood it was all over and well...it left me free and open to now start making a move on T...after about 3 months we started seeing each other...

Now I was 16, in std 8 at the time and a complete virgin....an unthinkable thing in Benoni.... :o) I was and still am an absolute geek where girls are concerned...when I started dating T, I had only ever kissed a girl and even that for me was a stretch but with T I felt completely comfortable and tbh we were like pieces in a jigsaw pauzzle, we slotted in perfectly...after 3 months we had progressed way passed a kiss and we had to try everything but sleep with each other...you see, at the time T was 15 and it was illegal so that was a serious thing in my life (like I said I was a geek)...so....we waited...but it didnt last too long and the day came when we decided that it was time...So we both decided to bunk school one morning and went str8 to her place.... :o)

T's place was always full of people, having an incredibly mischievious twin brother, there was always a fair amount of drinking, smoking and puffing weed going on during school time...and this day unfortunately was no different..we got home expecting the house to be empty and lo and behold, it was full of bunkers...dammit!!!....you can imagine our frustration...finally deciding that this was exactly the right time, only to walk in to a bunch of people....so....we had to wait...again....we bunked school at 8 and most of the peeps could only leave at 2 due to them obviously being seen out of school...they slowly started dispersing but there were stragglers...luckily for us, K, T's brother clicked on that there was some reason why we were home together and looking rather love stricken and managed to get them all out by about 3...

The moment had arrived and I can distinctly remember my heart thumping in my chest...I had been naked with T before but this was a very different naked...being a total newbie at all this, I had bought a pack of condoms before, I decided to go with the most expensive you could buy...and that was studded for her pleasure... :o) I had no idea what this meant but I thought it was better safe than sorry...little did I know that some small girls, um...just cant use "studded for her pleasure"...so to my dismay we had to scrap that idea...fortunately tho,T had been smart enough to buy her own thinking I might forget (sure, as if)...so it happened and well...it was very brief.......I couldnt believe that this was what was all the hype was about !?...so we tried again and this time it was muuuuuuuch better :o)

I walked out of the house feeling light headed and grinning like the cheshire cat from Alice in wonderland...T seemed fairly exhuberent as well much to my delight...I got onto my bike...kissed her, drove off and fell str8 off :o)

T and myself continued seeing each other for another 4 years after that...all the way until I was 20...we were very in love and T, much to my mom dismay wanted to start a family (at the ripe age of 19 !!!...she was a bit loony about the whole thing and I was seriously worried she would either not ake the pills or prick the condom...GULP )...so my mom shipped me and a bunch of my mates off to the kibbutz hoping to save her son from impending doom....things got a bit nasty after that and we went our seperate ways, I started pining for her terribly after awhile but by that time, T was seeing another guy and after a year she was pregnant with his child...she now has 2 kids and the family she always wanted... :o) I havent spoken to her since the last time we saw each other...10 years ago...

Sometimes I wonder what wouldve happened if we had stayed together, but altho I was fairly upset with my mom at the time...I count myself lucky that I got out while I was still young, otherwise I can guarantee you I would still be living in benoni with a beer boep and a stunning career in panel beating...I still miss her tho, after all this time ;o)